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BLACKPILL

by elias and the error

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FIRE EYE 01:08
(unintelligible)
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Every day I die, betrayed by his design Feels nice Begging to know why salvation is denied Feels nice I keep on falling but the bottom never comes Deny the law of man that's rendered in our blood They keep you hungry so you can't afford to run I don't want the drugs I don't want the drugs but I think I need the drugs I'm so close to giving up and I do not give a fuck Have you heard what's in my head? Heard the howling of the dead? Heard the calling of the end? Heard a fucking thing I've said? You know I get so sick Just for the hell of it Ruin my fucking life I resent the world for what it's not I fan a flame that's vengeance hot Destiny mocks me from its throne I must defeat you on my own Blood from a stone, the grinding of bones I must defeat you on my own Armies of drones invading my dome I must defeat you on my own Gave me a pen, gave me a contract I signed Told me how it felt to be owned by you Feels nice Told me what to take, give my brain a break Feels nice Said what I should do if I ran from you Think twice
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STARK LIFE 03:05
Just another day of wanting to die That's how it goes when you're living Stark Life Just another day of wanting to die That's all we know cause we living Stark Life I want to live pain-free But I can't and it hurts so I'd rather not be You're crazy if you have no fear Everyone I know has had a fucked up year Mood drugs swim through my head If I'm lucky then tomorrow I will wake up dead All systems in the red If I'm lucky then tomorrow I will wake up dead Stark Life is a big black hole And I'm not just talking about the opiate death toll Not just talking about the mass shooting death toll Not just talking about the suicide death toll Barely got out, won't make it through another If you think you need some help, it's a real motherfucker The rulers on the hill don't give a fuck about your struggle If you think you need some help, it's a real motherfucker It's a sick sad world, that's American history The poor in the void of compassion or victory They preach God's love but it's all contradictory Don't have to ask why, it's not a goddamn mystery The money means more than you or I You're just a statistic, who gives a fuck if you die? A line on the budget they just can't afford Unless you sell your body to their bullshit wars $600 bil' in military costs A freezer out back where ODs get tossed Minutes to the buzzer and the odds are stacked And they're counting on the fact that we ain't gonna fight back So tell me are you gonna get organized Or just stay awake at night wondering why? Human desire cannot be satiated without cruelty If you living Stark Life then you know the Stark Truth That you learned from the suffering that you've been through It's hard to give a shit when it all feels doomed And these systems of oppression are meant to fuck you
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Hate to have to break it to you They don't really give a fuck about you Isolate myself, I'm The Isolator Do a disappearing act, I'm the prestidigitator Why don't they initiate the conversation? Ignore all your mental illness complications? It's 'cause they got their own lives now And your bad energy is bringing them down You get fucked up by yourself at night Starving for attention, got an appetite Now you're left on read, that's a red light Hoping someone sees your posts on a website Don't wanna be a space invader Don't want no one invading my space I don't even feel like a human Won't win no medal in the human race Wish I could slow down my brain Everyday it's moving at a breakneck pace About to leave this existential plane I need someone to tell me I'm okay I want to be left alone I don't want to go I want to be left alone Wish I could go back home
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Peeling off my skin to find the strength I lack Dead in every way, nothing can bring me back Fire all around, familiar with the flame Measure my whole life in increments of pain Just one more defeat and I'm in the grave All this to forget that it feels the same Will I just keep losing more until there's nothing at all? And so it's just one more defeat Just one more defeat 'til I'm gone, all dissolved Chest is full of prayers but there's no room for air Talking to myself with you still standing there How long must I wait to feel like I'm enough? Suffered too much hate to still believe in love
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GODDEXX: Under the baseboard What is my heart for? Carry me off towards Something I'd die for ELIAS: Tell them a lie, say I've been fine Straight bottom lip down the whole line Swear to give up one million times It fucked with my life, it fucked with my mind Everything seems red and blue Throwing up blood up in our bedroom Throwing on a smile like it's a costume Struggling to live 'cause you wanna die, too Hide from the dread and resemble the dead Hands trembling on the side of my head Had to find help 'cause I'm ready to blow 85 bucks for an hour or so Climbed up a tree, too scared to come down Sharks circling as I start to drown Put on this show, don't know nothing else Mom told me I should ask God for help Get me to the thing, the thing that gets me through The source of all my pain, I don't know what to do GODDEXXX: Stretch and fade like the light that would kill you If I held you to the knife would it thrill you? Would you die or shine bright? I can see you Let me dance into the night and I'll bleed through And we're all here spinning Just pretend we're living But it's not forgiving Oh it's not for giving
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Run from your life, the pain inside You don't know why you have to die Each new day still the same There's no way, kill the pain There's no help, don't feel well Padded cell, straight to Hell Kill my self, synapse melt You don't know why you have to die You have to die The gift of life is a lie You're denied, nerves are fried What's the point? There's no point You don't know why you have to die

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MUSIC VIDEOS

i dont want the drugs
www.youtube.com/watch?v=jkfxPW71nB0

just one more defeat
www.youtube.com/watch?v=M7QadI4Ddbo

FIRE EYE
www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tj0BQ4FYDo

STARK LIFE
www.youtube.com/watch?v=t_ya_rVg0dg

THE ISOLATOR
www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPZ95RmqxRE

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BLACKPILL is the story of the last four years of my life.

I dedicate this album to the daily struggles faced by the millions of mentally ill and disabled people worldwide with who have no access to health coverage or social assistance.

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released October 16, 2020

XEMOBIZ - ribbon synth, glitch loops (2)
math_uuuu - additional drum programming (4 & 6)
worriedsick - additional drum programming (4)
Donnie Service - live drums (4)
katopossum - additional vocals (5)
elmelomane - lead guitar (5)
GODDEXX - lead vocals (6)
elias - everything else

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